(Source: skate-low)

It’s been a quite some time, since I was a little kid dreaming about his band, and how we’re gonna make it… How we’re gonna have shows in sold out stadiums, pointing the microphone into the audience and hear them singing every single word from the songs I wrote… Well… unfortunately… we’re getting older…(not that old… I know i’m just 23… but as “what’s my age again” states… nobody likes you when you’re 23…) and as we’re getting older… some of the people we have in our life just need to walk a different path as us… it is especially sad, when these are people who you formed a band with… real friends… honest , loving, caring and wise people… and when they’re gone… you suddenly don’t know what’s going to happen with the band you formed… the dreams you shared… everything’s gone… but life goes on, and you have to find someone to fill in the spot… when new people arrive… you start to know each other and shit… and at the end of the day… you just realize, that band… that you were working on so hard for those years…you were looking for shows, you were writting lyrics as mad, you were singing your butt off… is not the band you want it to be anymore… and the new people are not your friends at all… they are just people who want to play a bit, and don’t understand that this band is actually in some kind of sick and twisted way your child… your child you’re trying so desperately to push for a better future… but they don’t seem to understand that… they also don’t seem to get that band is supposed to be a family… and I believe that you’re not a real man, if you won’t live by “Family First” rule or whatever it is… it just constantly breaks my heart… it just.. breaks me down everytime we have a show, rehearsal or whatever… i’m not really enjoying it anymore… and I believe, it’s because the people… I mean… no offense… these people are really cool and they are really good musicians… but…something is missing from this band… something is wrong…
and I don’t know if I want to be a part of this anymore… maybe I should just give the band a break… and tell guys that they should continue without me under a different name… because I ain’t giving that name to anybody who just jumped in along the way… it is too personal to give it up like that… plus… to give it to people who don’t even deserve that name, because they find milion things that are more important than the rehearsal or the band itself… that’s bullshit… and it ain’t gonna happen… I sacrificed too much for this band to end up like that… I’m still sacrificing too much for that band to let it collapse… So as far as I’m alive… I’m gonna work hard, write music, sing my heart out and fight for this band …
And maybe blindly believe that better days may start tomorrow…